Over a year since my last post, and here I am!
The past year has been a rollercoaster. Once again shit hit the fan and my life kind of fell apart, I mean the past five years I’ve been falling apart and putting back the pieces, again and again. But this time I feel like the glue holding me together has actually set. November of 2015, my life was turned upside down.
Everything that I knew was no longer,
My family, was not my family and I had no idea what to do,
and those I once trusted became dead to me.
I’m not gonna lie, the past two years have been the hardest in my entire life, and I wouldn’t wish what happened to me on anyone else.
Yet somehow, I’m almost
thankful for how much my
trauma has taught me.
The past year I’ve done nothing but work on myself, and focus on my recovery, and holy shit am I glad that I did!
This November will be two years since I realized that I was being abused.
I don’t really know how that time of the year is going to make me feel, but what I do know is that for once in my life
I feel like I’m going to be
okay in the long run.
WHERE HAVE I BEEN?
well let me tell you darling.
-Trying to not have a nervous breakdown most of the time
-Working my ass off
-Trying to graduate
-Balancing a relationship and everything else going on in my life at the time
-Attending countless counselling sessions
-Losing and making a lot of friends
-Ending a year and a half long relationship
Graduating with HONOURS
So been a tad busy.
I’ve also recently moved away from home,
and goddamn, I’ve never
felt any better.
I guess sometimes you just have to say “fuck it” and leave the toxic situation,
and have enough self respect and love
to know that you deserve
to feel better.
I’m by no means “fixed”
but god damn do I feel
So there you go, that’s where I’ve been.
All my love,